6 weeks

I am 6 weeks out from surgery. 
I had 2 discs removed along with my old hardware. He added 2 bone grafts *, 2 titanium plates, and 8 screws.  

*(please consider organ and tissue donation, you never know who you might help to live a better life!) 


My scar is hideuous.  I hope it fades quickly. At least when winter comes I can wear scarves and turtlenecks. 

And oh the bills!  We have a high deductible and copay, but thank God for insurance! 

Overall, I feel terrible. I am exhaused all the time. I can honestly say I have never felt as crappy - physically- as I do now. I don't sleep well and pain is difficult to control, tylenol doesn't do it and I don't want to take the prescription stuff they gave me. That was fine for a few days after surgery, but not for everyday. 

It will get better, I know that, I am just ready to be better now. 

I am home

Pain is under control,
Neck brace is going to get old fast.

The incision is ugly,
Glad the worst is behind me!
But I am tired.

black and white

I added a new header.
Actually an  old pic for my new header

Me as a blonde!  
Its my mom's cousin's wedding. 1966-ish?
Looks like my brothers and cousin were having a hard time sitting still. 

one of my favorites 

leftovers

scrappy potholders

Happy Easter

an oldie, 
but always one of 
my favorites.

Happy Easter! 

Can you believe it?

Me.
Actually posting a picture
of a project.

 (A crappy picture in bad lighting. 

I was watching tv 

and just took a picture of my lap.)

Scrappy.
And I absolutely love it. 

990 tiny squares of color.
No, I am not hiding the ends.

unmotivated

I am in such a sewing and crocheting funk.  I did buy some yarn for a baby afghan...the little princess is due in Feb,  I should get going.  Seasonal depression stinks! 

I have finished with OT for my shoulder,  Stll doing exercises on my own. Its getting there, still painful if I move my arm quickly. 

My foot is healing, almost back to its normal color.  I must have pissed off the nerves in the top of my foot. When I put on a sock it burns and when I lay in bed at night it itches like crazy. Nerves are weird.

Then, earlier this week, my cousin passed away. She had cancer and things progressed quickly. She was such a dear friend. We emailed constantly. We shared the same political veiws and loved bashing the candidates. I am so sad. She was the closest thing to a sister I will ever have. She was an aunt to my kids.  Her and her husband loved them like their own. I am picturing her in heaven with her mom, my mom, and our grandma - sitting around the kitchen table. telling stories, laughing, and eating rhubarb pie.  I was not able to visit her at the end, I hope she understand and knows how I feel about her. 

She left this worth on a night with the most beautiful snowfall. Thick, heavy, pure white loveliness.

 For sure! Also true in the fabric store ;) 

maybe I should bubble wrap myself

The last day of the year.

Our family Christmas.

I missed a step and fell.

I cried because I was embarrassed,

which is embarrassing too! 

It wasn't bad at first.

But as the day went on...it begain to hurt and swell. 

Stopped at the ER in the way home. 

Xray tech told me my foot was pretty.

The doctor said it wasn't broken, but I break would have healed better. 

Torn ligaments and strained tendons.

He said I should be on crutches for a month. 

Not an option because of the recent rotator cuff surgery,

He said all I could do was stay off it: 

 "And I mean really stay off it, You can walk to the bathroom and that's it. Make friends with your couch and tv."  

I also twisted my knee on the left side. 

When I went to bed I cried again, cuz I am just so over all of this. 

shit.