6 weeks

I am 6 weeks out from surgery. 
I had 2 discs removed along with my old hardware. He added 2 bone grafts *, 2 titanium plates, and 8 screws.  

*(please consider organ and tissue donation, you never know who you might help to live a better life!) 


My scar is hideuous.  I hope it fades quickly. At least when winter comes I can wear scarves and turtlenecks. 

And oh the bills!  We have a high deductible and copay, but thank God for insurance! 

Overall, I feel terrible. I am exhaused all the time. I can honestly say I have never felt as crappy - physically- as I do now. I don't sleep well and pain is difficult to control, tylenol doesn't do it and I don't want to take the prescription stuff they gave me. That was fine for a few days after surgery, but not for everyday. 

It will get better, I know that, I am just ready to be better now. 

I am home

Pain is under control,
Neck brace is going to get old fast.

The incision is ugly,
Glad the worst is behind me!
But I am tired.

black and white

I added a new header.
Actually an  old pic for my new header

Me as a blonde!  
Its my mom's cousin's wedding. 1966-ish?
Looks like my brothers and cousin were having a hard time sitting still. 

one of my favorites 

leftovers

scrappy potholders

Happy Easter

an oldie, 
but always one of 
my favorites.

Happy Easter! 

Can you believe it?

Me.
Actually posting a picture
of a project.

 (A crappy picture in bad lighting. 

I was watching tv 

and just took a picture of my lap.)

Scrappy.
And I absolutely love it. 

990 tiny squares of color.
No, I am not hiding the ends.

unmotivated

I am in such a sewing and crocheting funk.  I did buy some yarn for a baby afghan...the little princess is due in Feb,  I should get going.  Seasonal depression stinks! 

I have finished with OT for my shoulder,  Stll doing exercises on my own. Its getting there, still painful if I move my arm quickly. 

My foot is healing, almost back to its normal color.  I must have pissed off the nerves in the top of my foot. When I put on a sock it burns and when I lay in bed at night it itches like crazy. Nerves are weird.

Then, earlier this week, my cousin passed away. She had cancer and things progressed quickly. She was such a dear friend. We emailed constantly. We shared the same political veiws and loved bashing the candidates. I am so sad. She was the closest thing to a sister I will ever have. She was an aunt to my kids.  Her and her husband loved them like their own. I am picturing her in heaven with her mom, my mom, and our grandma - sitting around the kitchen table. telling stories, laughing, and eating rhubarb pie.  I was not able to visit her at the end, I hope she understand and knows how I feel about her. 

She left this worth on a night with the most beautiful snowfall. Thick, heavy, pure white loveliness.