how sweet is this little peanut in her mermaid tail blanket? She has plenty of room to grow!

karma?

I really wanted to sew the other day.
Gathered some fabric scraps, wanted to make myself a little keychain.
Snuggled in with my old singer.

Nothing.

Checked to make sure everything was plugged in. 
Still nothing.
Unplugged them and re-plugged.

Dead.

Checked the outlet.
Fan worked.
Third time's the charm right?
Nope.

Must look on the bright side.
Had it for a long time.
Sewed quilts,and crafts, 
patched lots of barn pants.
Miles of stitching, I'm sure. 
Was a cheap machine to start with.
It did well.
I had my fun.
I will save for another one.
just had to put new brakes and calibers in my car :(
had a tractor repair bill of over $9000, yup. that's thousand :(
had our daughter's wedding in April :)
my son is getting married in 19 days! :)
(my hubby got  new suit. he looks so sazzy in it :) 
And I got one of my dresses on sale, the other one on clearance :)
oops, I got distracted...



Don't see a new machine anytime soon. 
Maybe I will unplug it and plug it again one more time, just to make sure. 

unmotivated

I have quilt scraps waiting to be turned into a colorful quilt.

I have (literally!) 30 crochet UFOs.

My house is cluttered with yarn and laundry. (its clean and folded, just not put away, because i have fall and summer stuff out)

And I don't want to deal with any of it.

Its hot and still humid. Too bad fall can't arrive when the calendar says September.

The damp, humid, rainy weather is so hard on me.
Living with chronic pain stinks!  


I got a cortisone shot in my neck today. The anesthesiologist could not get the needle where he (and I) wanted it. I have a plate in my neck and it was in the way.  So he went in a vertabrae lower.  I must say it is the weirdest feeling when that needle moves across those bones...I kind of wonder if I am really hearing it or I its just the scraping sensation I feel and think I am imagining it...Either way its strange!  

Let's just hope it helps. Because the pain is exhausting.  It takes so much energy to get through the day. 
Wish they could just fill me with cortisone! LOL.  Serioulsy, I have done this. All the steroiods have messed with my blood sugar. Now I have to go back in a few months to make sure that is in check. 

I just read a blog. The writer was talking about skin care and wrinkles.
It just bugged me. 
I know, I have no right to judge.
But I wish that was all I had to complain about. 
I'm tired
stressed
and cranky.

I would give anything to crawl into bed at night and be able to fall asleep and not wake until morning.
To snuggle up with my husband and not be in tears because it hurts to be touched. 
To turn back the clock
To not have been in a car accident.
To not have had cancer.
To have tendons that have not  disintegrated.
To be normal

Rant over. Tomorrow will be a better day.  I can only hope ;) 

left shoulder

will be having surgery on my left shoulder in November.

at least I will have symetrical scars!

summertime

Ah summer.

I am so unmotivated to crochet.
A cozy prayer shawl or afghan on my lap, 
not my idea of fun when its hot and humid.
I have so many projests started, 
just can't seem to focus to finish anything. 

I should be sewing.
But my sewing room is upstairs.
Someday I will save up for a little window a/c.
Old farm house second floors in the summer tend to be disgusting a little a little warm too.

So I am spening my craft time poking around blogs.
and on pinterest...
pinning so many patterns I will never attempt
 and recipes I will never make
and clothes I will never wear ;) 

Here is a link to my work that I have pinned. 

Independence Day!

Beautiful (not humid) weather here the past few days. I hate humid, so this has been perfect summer weather for me.

I ditched my sling. My surgeon told me I still have to wear in in public - will keep people from bumping into me or me forgetting and grabbing something or try to open a heavy door. Also not allowed to shake hands with people, LOL in case some one at church has a death grip. ;)

Now I can sew and crochet again, as long as its not too dang hot. I started a colorful prayers shawl !

recovery

I had my rotator cuff repair surgery six weeks ago.

He also woven a bunch of nylon cording through what was left of the cartilage in the shoulder. Hoping it will scar over and the scar tissue will hold my shoulder together. apparently what little cartilage I have left was like tissue paper. 

I did not think about it being so hot and having to wear a nylon and foam immobilizing sling for 8 weeks.  I see the surgeon Tuesday, Hoping I can ditch this thing! Its sweaty and gross. 

Worst part is it is my right arm. And I am very right-handed

I have learned a few things along the way.

• no matter how gross the shower gets - my husband and daughter will not clean it.
• flossing your teeth is not possible with one hand, the little flosser pick things from the dollar store are awesome
• you can't put your hair in a ponytail one handed,
• cabin fever sets in quickly when you live 12 miles from town and are not allowed to drive.
• when my husband grocery shops after a 12 hour shift he buys lots of Oreos, hot dogs, and frozen pizzas
• when I am typing left handed I have to search for the keys, typing for years without thinking about it all goes out the window when you take away a hand.
• I don't care about mis typing something now. If I make a mistake its a pain to go back and fix it. If you're reading you can probably figure it out.
• Its hard to get all the shampoo and conditioner out of your hair in the shower
• having your husband put your deodorant on tickles
• I am really rethinking having my left shoulder done. I know in the long run it will be worth it, but I dread going through this again.
• my friends suck. I did not get one phone call.   No visitors except my kids. ( and they were here the day after surgery so I slept most of the time. lol)   I got one card from a retired couple from my church. 
• When I was diagnosed with cancer it was the same thing. Depressing. I am the person who sends care packages and birthday gifts. I make afghans and quilts  for friends when they are recovering, struggling or welcoming a new baby. I've made dozens of prayer shawls and lap afghans for church members.  I send gas cards to relatives going through cancer treatments.   I suppose I am being petty, but it hurts :(
• but I am still going to be the person who sends a card, mail a package full of little things to brighten someone's day, or I will keep crocheting and sewing. Because I know how a simple gesture can brighten someone's day.